writing

heres some stuff:

oh this is a link to the quotes page

you understand
the words
just arent there
when i try to find them
i cant explain what you mean to me
i just sit
in your wonderful presence
and hope you understandtheirs nothing
id rather do
than be with you
but sometimes i forget
why im here
i think about me
and lose you

when roads cross and choices
are being made
you always
light the path
i should take
but i still find myself
stumbling in the darkness

so you wait
for me to catch up
for me to realize
that my plans
are written on the paper
you created
and every good idea i get
came from you

a star too far
they tell me
you left the door open
when you said goodbye
i dont know
i couldnt see
their were tears/things in my eye
i feel the draft
as i sit and wonder
what this all means
trying to erase
from my head
all of our scenes
left open
only hoping
one day you will come back
pick up
your heart
and get back on track
drinking in
the evening air
and picking a new star
the one
you picked for us
must have been too far

never get it right
like burning flesh
you appear before me
screaming words ive never
seen or heard before

the perfect silence
only broken by your sobbing
the longing stare
ended by his call

my heart
left open and broken
like that balloon
you had to break
has her reasons
stop trying so hard
one minute and you have yourself down
feeling this way
doesnt get you anywhere

u cant force it
and you cant make it work
you can try
but dont waste your time

she has her reasons
like youve always had yours
so give up
give God control

impatient
is tatooed to my neck
where the last kiss was planted

hopeful
is embedded into the fibers
of this broken heart
one day this wont happen anymore
i dont know what to do
anymore
i cant help you
anymore
than i have been
you see i havent been there
i dont know where there
even is

i havent felt what
i havent seen what
you have
but it still hurts
to listen to your stories
listen to your sadness
and listen to your heart
thats breaking

and im still hoping
im still praying that
one day
this wont happen
anymore

your dying inside
arms are the proof
scars tell a story
dont jump off the roof
cause im here

i know its not looking good
but brother it could look so bad


timing is not my strong point

im waiting for you
to show up and blow me away

with everything you do
with everything you say

why cant you
be here now
why do i have to wait

my timing
isnt the best
one thing i hate
maybe i can learn from this
your time has come
ive decided its been to long
hoping this dream would
come true

i cant go on
trying to start this
when i cant even
find you around

time to add another name
to the list of relationships
ive put in the lane/column
clearly marked express

maybe i can learn from this
maybe i cant
but hopefully tomorrow
i wont remember you anymore

so goodbye
and goodnite
i hope you like
your last song

untitled
Forgetting why i came here
and forgetting who i am
is making me think that this isnt good enough

im so impatient
cant wait for tomorrow
help me stop wishing today was yesterday


Together but not
your smile said you’d have me
and my touch said i wanted you
but we both knew
this connection would never do

we played the game for one night
bringing back memories thought forever lost
whos place is it to say if we are wrong or right
repeat perfomance chances are never

you made me feel no longer rejected
and helped me get over feeling alone
i hope we stay connected
when im back home

bus song
The bus is full of people
people going places
people doing their own thing
people with hollow faces

someone could start crying
and no one would care
inside these people are dying
life sure is fair

everyone think only me
no one bothers to talk
peoples souls crying to be free
their lives as dry as chalk

theirs so many things
we could learn from each other
each person acts like a king
pretending they love their brother

maybe this is where i deserve to be
maybe this includes me
or perhaps i sit here for a reason
but l still put it off for a season

changed, but why?
What happened to you and all your strong ideals?
what happened to the girl that cares and feels
you used to be someone i strived to copy
but lately the ocean around you has been choppy

it was our naive ways and innocence i admired
now youve grown older than you are
but that path will only leave you hurt and tired

your smile was something i could always count on
i would try my best to make you laugh
yesterday i saw you with a frown on
have you forgotten the simple pleasures of the past?
was on a roll tonight. (avril 24, 04)
this is everything i felt
but nothing i thought it would be
if life is really like this
why is everyone not living?

and the wheels wont stop spinning.
planning the greatest dream
but never taking a step in that direction
always part of the winning team
but never received any attention

your worth translating a language
a million times to tell your story
my name means nothing compared to yours
but no one ever stands up for you
im the one they like
but i never did anything worth liking

this is all wrong and i dont know how to make it right
youve given us a chance but we dont know how to fight
our only tool is our time
and were wasting it on air

heh i was in the bathroom today and came up with first line of this and it went from there….(mars 2, 04):
its a sad night when you forget my name
so much different from when you came
asking me to be
everything you dreamed that i could be

its a sad sad night when i fall again
down to one last friend
i just cant seem to break free of
i just cant seem to let go of our past love

Hes calling like He did before
knocking at the door
asking me to come back home to Him
maybe if someone could pull these hands off my ears

and something old:
losing it all
praying to gain it and more one day
taking the fall
praying you will take me back again